P.D. Satyapal is an anthropologist, professor and BAMCEF speaker. In a conversation, he shares some of his experiences of caste and gender that led him towards Ambedkarite thought…
I was in born in a small town, a place called Baptla. It has many educational institutions, an agricultural institution, a few colleges, so many students used to come there. Other than that, it doesn’t have anything, like, it’s not a commercial centre. So, it is quite removed from the rural setting.
My mother is also a teacher. I am the eldest of six. She used to work, cook everything for us, pack lunch. She used to work very hard. At times, that male chauvinism used to be there in my father, though my mother is equally educated. When she complained about the load of domestic work, he would say, ‘What you’re complaining, it is just cooking, eating and washing’. He couldn’t see how difficult it was. So that was the relationship I see among many of my relatives – all of them are not highly educated – there are people working as teachers, clerks.
During my holidays, I would go to see my relatives, friends, whenever my father allowed me. I had gone to a place called Burrapalam (in Tenali), my grandfather’s native place. We had relatives there. I had friends among the relatives my age. Incidentally, one of my classmates from Loyola College, Vijayawada, he is of the same village. He belongs to the Kamma caste, they own a rice mill and lands. Whenever I go there, I visit him.
When I was in Plus Two – this is in 1977 – I have seen a strange thing: this guy, who is an adolescent, used to talk about his friendship with so many girls. He was economically well off and many people work in his field and the rice mill. He talked about having relationships with girls with ease. Always, he pointed out the place where my relatives stayed – that’s the cheri – and said, I’ve had sexual relations with that girl, this girl. He used to talk about that. Then I wondered, how is this guy talking about having very easy sexual relationships with these girls? So I asked him. He said, ‘They’re very easy’. So that was the first thing – he was talking about girls from relatives’ families – I’m a friend to him. We are talking at the same wavelength, but at the same time, it is a painful feeling in my mind because he is saying that all my relatives’ girls are loose.
That was the first year. I started hating my relatives. I thought, these people don’t know how to raise their girls, these girls are not moral in their behaviour. That is a time when I begin to ask why it should happen like this. Deliberately, next holidays I went there. I’ve been talking to these girls. As a youth, I’m thinking, if he can have relationships like that…so I’m also feeling romantic. When I’m with him, I think, so Burrapalam is like a free area. Again, he was talking to me about these things – very innocently, from his own background, you understand – so I asked how it works and all that. So, he said, ‘I go through this person.’ ‘He arranges things for me,’ he used to boast, well, not boasting, he was right. Even those girls who get married when they come back to their natal homes, he can continue the connection, he said. He can go to their homes in the night, the parents themselves will arrange for this. The first time, I had a negative feeling about the girls, now I’m having such feelings about their parents. How could they be so bad? Don’t they have any self-respect? Though this guy is a landlord and all…that was a painful thing for me. I didn’t talk to anybody about it. He told me, this guy would arrange girls for him. There is a cinema hall there. Choosing from the girls who come to the theatre, he would tell this man and he’ll arrange.
Then I asked the one who arranges – I don’t call him a pimp, but that’s his job – he works at the rice mill, so I asked him, ‘You also belong to the same caste.’ I belong to a Scheduled Caste called Mala. I asked him, ‘So it seems you arrange many good girls to my friend Ramu, why do you do that?’ Then he asked me, ‘You also want girls?’ I was hesitant to say yes or no. I just smiled. Then he told me, ‘Don’t harbour any such thoughts, it is a very bad thing. Don’t think that these people do it because they fancy it.’ He said that it is their necessity. I didn’t understand what this kind of necessity is. Then I started observing things and again asked him. Then he took me to the rice mill. They used to have two, three shifts. After one shift is over, workers ready to sell their labour will be ready at the gate. This persion is the one who picks up who should come for the next round of work. There I observed that he is picking up only few people, so I asked him why. He said, ‘That’s the secret, that’s the key.’
I sat with this man, also my relative, the manager, the one who is supplying all these girls to my friend. He told me that it is because all these people are labourers. Working in the mill or the field is the only thing they can do for a living. He said that the parents agree to send these girls because, unless they do it, they can’t be guaranteed regular continuous work. He would select only those parents or members of that family who satisfied this guy. I was totally disturbed. That was the time when I didn’t understand that hunger is so deep, that it also allows you to let your girls go and do this. These are the very parents who, when he visits their homes in the night, would vacate their houses, take their cots, and go away from their house, so he could have privacy with their daughter. That was one gory experience I have had. Before that, I was hating my relatives, thinking that they are not educated or good. Now I understand that because they are poor and have to sell their labour – and for the guarantee of work – they are taking up this thing.
I went to Tata Institute of Social Sciences (TISS) to study social work. My father wanted me to go to that school and then come to the church and work as a social worker. Loyola College was a boys college. TISS was co-ed and the hostel had boys in one wing and girls in one wing. I was pinching myself. Later on, I found there was not much to be happy about, all the girls used to make us run errands. [laughs]
My professor used to be very harsh on the boys – only 3 of us in a class of 26. Every month, we have to go for a week of project work and give a report. Girls would be sent to hospitals, the boys to do projects on beggary, I was given a project on the leper colony – near Elephanta there was an island where more than 3000 lepers were rehabilitated. Then she sent me to work on prostitution. It was very difficult for me that time. Suppose she sent me to work on beggary – I didn’t know much Hindi, didn’t know Marathi at all – so I had to find those beggars who could converse in English. I would always get poor marks. There is an area in Bombay called Kamathipura – that time, in 1982, more than 36,000 licensed prostitutes were in that one area. For the first time, I’ve seen something like a prostitute India. For different states they have select houses – they call this as Andhra House, they call that as Assam House, Kashmir House, you have a choice. I went to the Andhra House. It was difficult to get there, we had to do a lot of pleading with managers and all that. Three of us made surveys, we surveyed the caste composition, socio-economic compostition of the prostitutes there. When I was doing all these calculations, I found that more than 68 per cent were from SC/ST/OBC background. It was the first time, I had seen prostitution from up close. Otherwise, we have some romanticised ideas of prostitution. That experience, I correlated with my experience in Plus Two. There and then, I was looking at this thing: They are all poor. I had framed a question: how many people still retain their relationship with their family while dong prostitution. In my survey, more than 58-59 percent of these girls still have connections with their family. More than 52 percent of their parents visit them, come to them, see them, take money. Which means parents are allowing them to do this. That means it is poverty that makes people sell their bodies. That is one area, I could correlate two experiences like this.
In Part II, P.D. Sathyapal shares his experiences of caste inside educational institutions…